Island of the Lone Insane Thought

HAPPY BIRTHDAY alabastard!!

Happy Birthday to an intriguing LJer! Your entries are always so interesting, and I love reading what you have to say. You're unique, and opinionated, and I'm glad to have met you. *hugs* I hope your day is great, and that the peacocks behave!

I'm so totally obsessing over stuff right now--and I need to be obsessing over entirely different things.

At least I've pushed myself on the website this evening, and made a teeny bit of headway. About time, honestly. Website Friend is probably ready to shoot me.

The house thing? I don't even want to talk about it. I'm terrified. I really hope this all will be worth it, because right now? I'm pretty damned freaked out. Things are not moving fast enough--and they're moving too fast at the same time. And the emotions involved are not all the best. Because I feel like a vulture in this scenario, and every time we ask for something else or try to get what we were supposed to get, I feel a terrible sense of shame and guilt. In order for us to live in this house, Husband's grandmother has to leave, and I am really feeling this emotionally right now. Um, please hold off with your Logic Beams, I totally know that she wants to move out (and should move out to somewhere she can be taken care of) but emotions don't listen to logic. In fact, they get really grumpy and shouty when logic is involved. *headdesk* I cannot shake this feeling, in every moment of interaction, that I am doing something intrinsically wrong.

The work that needs to be done in order to get in the house is both more and less than expected.

I also need to buy a snowblower.

ETA: I was wondering why I hadn't received any comments. Oh yeah, haven't posted it. You know what that means--time for bed.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY iibnf!!

Happy Birthday to a fantastic writer, and one of my very favorite LJers! You are hilarious, fascinating, and absolutely amazing. I love reading your journal. Your irreverant humor, amusing picspam, and witty entries are awesome and your journal is one of the first journals I catch up on when I return from a trip. I only wish that one day I could join you for yum cha. I'm so happy to have met you, and I'm even happier to have read some of your stories. *hugs* I hope your day is great!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY copperhead_kid!!

Happy Birthday to an awesome guy! We miss you and hope you have a really fantastic birthday. *giant hugs* I hope your day is great!

I have had insomnia for days now. I think--about two weeks. My brain seems to be in obsessive high gear. Yet I'm accomplishing nothing.

I'm so tired I'm actually a little dizzy.

Thank goodness tomorrow is a day I can sleep in. I'm so scrambled. I should have left the typing errors in so you could see.

Have just utterly wasted fifteen minutes rereading some Mummy bit of drivel I wrote ages ago just so I could respond to another review saying I'm not so smrt. Well, I'm not, but still, I really wanted to figure out what the reviewer was talking about, so I went through to see where I made the male character Islamic (he is Druze, mentions the Koran and Allah, but the Druze religion is rather unusual and incorporates lots of things, including sometimes the Koran and Allah, so I felt justified in this), and after I reread it I could see that I hadn't written him as Islamic; he is Druze, as I thought. I even dug up this Wiki page on the Druze and everything. And then I realized that the review was anon, so I can't respond. *headdesk*

Now you all get to see the fruits of my labor so I don't feel like it was useless. (Oh, and if you do read it, my research for it sucked. Yeah. It was all from a thrilling turn of the century book called Black Tents of Arabia. It was my first attempt at a romantic fanfic story, and it's pretty sad.)

Also, worst eBay week in forever. Worse than even the summeriest week this summer. Damnit.

I had something else to bitch about but I've forgotten what it was. So damned tired I could fall asleep on the keyboard. In fact, I think I'll go to bed now.

ETA: Have remembered what it is, and it's all about eBay and it's boring even me, so I'm still going to bed.

ETAETA: Now I've really remembered what it is. It wasn't the eBay thing. I just realized that I completely forgot to read the flist tonight, for the first time in months. Am totally shocked at self. Still going to bed. Will catch up tomorrow morning.

tjwritter has recc'ed my Snupin haiku series for crack_broom!

Thanks, TJ! You are the absolute sweetest! I'm so totally squeeing right now. *giant hugs*

5:00 Get up and take shower at friends' house in WI.
5:30 Go upstairs and eat breakfast. Friends' kids are already up--wow.
6:00 Leave. Wave to friends' kids through the window. Super cute.
6-7:50 Drive. Detours involved.
7:50 Arrive at show location. Set up booth.
8:38 Finish setting up booth and sit down. I am in the hallway in front of the main room, and there are doors to the outside at the end of the hallway, and I begin to get cold, which ends up lasting all day because people keep opening the doors.
9:30 Vendor comes in and starts talking (loudly) about how he's moved out of the "ghetto" and to an area "where the beautiful girls hug each other."
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I'm leaving for WI, and then IL for a day, and I'll be back late Sunday night.

I've finally finished posting the parts for the Riptide fic at the Riptide comm, and I'm loling because (upon rereading) I think I lost people right around part four (out of six). Thing is, I've never really gone all-out with my h/c obsession in a fic before, and I was wondering about the reaction...I think I may have laid on the h/c a bit too thick. The way I like it, but probably too unrealistic and silly for most...hee!

Anyway, will miss you all, m'friends, and see you next week. *hugs*

Wow--the flist was really swamped with political news. There was one day where, in the course of ten hours, I had 120 new entries to go through.

I've been taking shelter under Riptide episodes, glutting myself on the pretty men, and making lots and lots of icons. I'm crap at it but it's fun.

I still need to type up my fun with lady_branwyn in Columbus, but I can't find the cable to transfer pics from my phone to my computer.

Had a big shock today. I am now covered by a health insurance company, and they require testing each year for things like nicotine, blood sugar fasting level, etc. So I received the results in the mail, and I nearly fell over in surprise. My cholesterol level is 147. *blinks* (LDL: 85, HDL: 37.) I mean, some of you have been out to eat with me, can you imagine this at all? I was expecting 275, to be honest. Still, my BMI was horrible, so there you go.

I'm feeling very meh, though, overall. The insomnia has me in its ruthless grip, and I have a headache from sleep-deprivation.

Also, I am taking down pictures and boxing books, and I feel very weird indeed about this move. I feel both good and weird and bad. I'm very frightened about money. I will be in Chicago on Sunday for a show, and I don't foresee anything good happening from it.

At least tomorrow I will have a seven-hour drive where I will think about h/c scenarios non-stop. That's something nice to look forward to.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY blackletter!!

Happy Birthday to one of the most intriguing LJers here in LJland! I'm so happy to have met you. I love your entries--they're so interesting, and you're such a fascinating person. I love your sense of humor, and your subject matter is always scintillating and offbeat. You're one of my favorite people here on LJ, and I'm glad our paths crossed and we're friends! *hugs* I hope your day is great!

So the new place (1500 sq ft) needs to be painted.

I do not want to paint it. I only want a couple coats of white paint, applied by an expert.

My father is telling me he will teach me how to paint, and I can do it myself rather cheaply, or pay $$$ and have it done by an expert.

However, I'm worried about the timetable, and I am also concerned about how little time I have available for the next two months and how I have to clean out the new place and somehow get rid of all of the stuff there that we don't want to keep, clean out the apartment and transfer everything to the new place, and also pick out flooring and have it installed at the new place, and sign paperwork and get a mortgage, and do my usual eBay/shows/trips/pull out hair all the while. Also, I know how I operate, and if I am the one doing the painting, it will all end in tears.

Anyone have suggestions for getting a house painted in the metro Detroit area, without leaning on friends? I just need a nice, neat two-coat white paint job on 1500 sq ft. Well, less, actually, because one bedroom doesn't need it.


In other news, I've started posting the Riptide fic at the comm. It ended up at 26K. I might still revise the last chapter a teensy bit, but wow. I did not expect this--I thought 5K, max. *blinks* Anyway, I'm so happy to have it (pretty much) finished so that it will STOP EATING MY BRAIN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY aerynstales!!

Happy Birthday to a totally fun LJer! I'm so happy to have met you. I love your energetic enthusiasm, your funny entries, and your sparkling personality! You were one of the first people I friended here on LJ, and I'm so glad that I did so. You're such a sweetie! *hugs* I hope your day is great!

I forgot to check my domain business email for a week, and I just opened it up to find that I'm going to be sourced for one of the projects in a major craft magazine. This is great, and awful. Great because people will check me out. Awful because...omg. I think the product has been mislabeled, which is going to draw enormous ire from a few, and also, I think it's from my leftover bags, which means I don't have anymore, and it's absolutely nothing I want to feature--in fact, I don't even want to put it on my website.

*headdesk*

In other news, I'm nearly finished with the Riptide fic. 25K. Yes. 25K. Turns out that I probably should have signed up for Snupin Santa after all--apparently I did have time for fic. But I'm glad I didn't, because I'm afraid that the difference between the Snupin and the Riptide is that I was absolutely yanked off my feet by the Riptide idea and spun about, which resulted in a great deal of energy spent on it this week, and the Snupin might not have grabbed me so hard, and I have a strong feeling that I wouldn't have been able to finish in time. So hooray for not being an irksome thorn in someone's side this year. And hooray for Riptide for making me put words into the void.

Words. I can't believe how good it feels to write. I can't believe how much I missed it.

I have only to write the epilogue. I'm going to reread it and see if I can do that right now. I'll start posting it in sections at the Riptide comm, starting Sunday. Wow, I've never been one of those people before--you know, the really with-it writers who actually finish a long fic before posting it.

I'm so buzzing right now. So buzzing with words. And I must really work on packing things for the move--I have managed to put together and tape close about 15 boxes--but I have so much more to do, only I'm trapped in King Harbor with some hot guys. haha! See what I mean? Rain and sun.

tinx_r has just illustrated it perfectly here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY _lore!!

Happy Birthday to a wonderful writer and energetic LJer! I'm so happy to have met you, and I love reading your work. Your Snupin pimping fu is great, your journal entries are always interesting, and you have so many fun insights. And you're such a warm person! *hugs* I hope your day is awesome!

The ever-lovely tinx_r has written a spooky vampire Riptide fic for me called Portrait of the Vampire. Rated NC-17, full of yummy Nick and Cody, and as tasty as all of Tinx's writing is. I enjoyed it very much--it's like watching a new episode. Er, an NC-17 episode, that is.

Summary: With Murray in the hands of the vampire, Nick and Cody must work fast to find him in time...

Portrait of the Vampire: Part one, Part two.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY mimbulus!!

Happy Birthday to a fun LJer! I'm so happy to have met you. Your journal is always interesting! *hugs* I hope your day is great!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ac1d6urn!!

Happy Birthday to an amazing artist, and a wonderful writer! You are one of the sweetest, kindest, most wonderful people I've met, and you're such a talented person! I'm so happy to have met you and seen and read your mind-blowing, prolific work. You are such a great LJer, and such a terrific person! *hugs* I hope your day is great!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY celestialsoda!!

Happy Birthday to a fantastic artist! I haven't seen you online much recently, which is sad. *hugs* Wherever you are today, I hope you have a wonderful time!

As you all are no doubt aware of, I am massively prone to navel-gazing. I have had another epiphany; I have large swings of mood. I don't just mean the monthly insanity. I mean overarching moods.

Right now I am in the middle of a Good Mood. This means that I am frightfully certain that everything will be okay. I am writing. I am writing. I am writing. Sorry, that's just such a huge portion of the mood. I am also feeling good about my face. During other swings, I look at my face in the mirror and I shudder and think, holy cow, am I ugly. Over and over and over again. It only lasts a moment, please don't feel you must now begin with the "You are beeyyooooutifrul" stuff. Anyway, right now, I'm actually happy with my face, and I think it looks fine.

Really, what I wanted to bitch about is the fact that during this kind of phase I CANNOT SLEEP. I can't get to sleep, and then I wake up too early and my mind floods with story stuff. I woke up at 7 this morning and that was it--no sleeping after that, except for a weird half asleep thing where I started making up my Mary Sue in Jake & the Fatman, which is a show I've never even seen, so this scares me a little.

I'm very geeked--I'm off to Columbus. I have a show tomorrow, and I've splurged and rented a hotel room for tonight. It's a four hour drive, and normally I would try to drive there the morning of (four hours is my "limit," anything outside of four hours requires a hotel room), but I've decided that it's better to skip the long day and instead take it a little easy. This has turned out to be the Best Decision Ever because I am so sleep-deprived this week. Plus, this means I get to hang out with lady_branwyn tonight. Best bonus ever!

In other news, Firefox has decided to only save my tabs 98% of the time. So I've lost a bunch of Knight Rider tabs this morning. I will soldier on, though.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY snapesforte!!

Happy Birthday to a brilliant writer and artist! You are one of my favorite people on LJ, and I miss you quite a bit. Your illustrations are incredible. Your style is so unique and fascinating, and I'm so honored beyond belief to look at two of your pieces (above my computer) every day. You are funny, droll, and sharp as a knife. I'm so happy to have met you and read your amazing work. *hugs* I hope your day is great!

I was given a task yesterday at the day job, and I pushed through a third of it. Last night I had an "a-ha" moment--I realized I could use the VLOOKUP function in Excel to cut off about a third of the remaining time involved in the project.

This morning I spent an hour and fifteen minutes fiddling with LOOKUP, VLOOKUP, and even INDEX/MATCH and could not get the bastard to work properly. (I have a feeling that it's because I absolutely have no choice about storing numbers as text in the document, and somehow, when it's trying to match them, it's either a) thinking the numbers for the array aren't "sorted" and therefore it balks, or b) the reference to a cell is making the texty-number all sad and useless.)

So I was thirty pages short of finishing. I volunteered to come in tomorrow, thinking that they wouldn't bother with it, but they want me to. Sigh. (If I had just not spent that time trying to work smarter, lol...)

My two options:

1) Go in and work a half day, which (theoretically) leaves me time to do my errands, like going to the post office, working on Etsy/eBay stuff, packing boxes, buying pads, and going to the grocery store. However, then I have to drive in by myself (my sister is working a full day) and that's a big gasoline draw. And I'm so damned tired and sleepy because I've been writing (er, Riptide stuff) and I'm all full of story thoughts and I can't sleep, and my period started today, so I'm even more tired, and I don't want to get up and go in.

2) Go in and work a full day to save on gasoline and make some $. House, after all. But I'm so tired. And then I wouldn't have time for the errands. Poor Husband would have to do the post office stuff and he's already been running ragged this week. Plus, I'm on my period and I don't want to sit there all day during the worst day of my period. wah.

I've decided on 1. Plus, I can run and drop something off to a friend whose store is very near work, and I think she'd be pretty geeked about it.

*yawn*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY bob_the_mighty!!

Happy Birthday to Bob! I hope you have an awesome birthday, wherever you are! *hugs* I miss you.

I've just received an offer in the mail which promises "extended vehicle coverage up to...100,000 miles."

As I am currently at 98,900, and will be driving to Columbus this weekend, and WI two weekends after that, I think it would be in my best interest to turn it down.

Today at work I listened to one of the best one-sided phone conversations ever. It involved a daffy co-worker whose opening line was a bit vague, and whose second line (while more precise) sounded annoyed. Her third line was, "Hello?!" because the person had hung up on her. *snort*

Had blood drawn yesterday, and am waiting the results. Yes, I have joined the land of those covered by health insurance! (Last glimpsed...oh, over fifteen years ago.)

I'm suddenly selling things on Etsy. Not enough to make me trick out my car in handmade doilies and prowl the streets announcing Etsy supremacy from a giant speaker tied to the roof, but then again, enough that I'm hopeful. Honestly, I cannot understand how Etsy does not end up on a f_w equivalent every single day--there is so much growling in the forums! Not to mention people posting curse words and then claiming inebriation later. I really am growing to like it there.

Many thanks to ellid for sending me to a new archive, where I found all sorts of amusement.

• Kitt is found, having been ripped out of the shell of the car, and given a new body, one based on that of a human. Oh wow, I hadn't even thought of this--of course there would be KITT Ghost in the Shell diving into a human body stuff. All the better for the bawm chikka bawm bawm.


• Holy cow. subrosax was right. I've just found that there is Michael/KITT (IN CAR FORM) slash. *blinks* Dropping his hand to the warm hood, [Michael] stroked the smooth black shell with his fingertips. Wow. This is a form of slash for which I have no words.


• As wonderful as David Hasselhoff is, as much as I love him, and although he sparked the relationship between Michael Knight and Kitt in a way that brought the series to life; I still believe that in some ways, the Michael Knight he portrayed was a caricature of a person. NOES!! BLASPHEMER

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What can I say? I was on a roll.

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